Monday, February 28, 2011

Feb. 28, 2011 Monday: Letting go of our fear of God

Letting Go of Our Fear of God



We are afraid of emptiness. Spinoza speaks about our "horror
vacui," our horrendous fear of vacancy. We like to
occupy-fill up-every empty time and space. We want to be
occupied. And if we are not occupied we easily become
preoccupied; that is, we fill the empty spaces before we
have even reached them. We fill them with our worries,
saying, "But what if ..."

It is very hard to allow emptiness to exist in our lives.
Emptiness requires a willingness not to be in control, a
willingness to let something new and unexpected happen. It
requires trust, surrender, and openness to guidance. God
wants to dwell in our emptiness. But as long as we are
afraid of God and God's actions in our lives, it is unlikely
that we will offer our emptiness to God. Let's pray that we
can let go of our fear of God and embrace God as the source
of all love.

-Henri Nouwen

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Feb. 27, 2011: 8th Sunday Ordinary (A)


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All this week, I was scheduled to give talks to parents whose children are preparing for their First Communion.  In preparing for the talks, I asked my self what I remembered about my First Communion.  (How many of you remember your First Communion? Which church? What were you wearing? Do you still have some of the gifts that you received, especially, a rosary? Do you pray with it?) I still have photos from when I received my First Communion when I was 9-years old. I was in Korea, then. The boys wore white albs and the girls wore white dresses with white veils. Other than the photos, I do not recall anything else about the experience. I then asked myself, when did I truly realize that the Eucharist was literally the body, soul, and divinity of Jesus? For that answer, I really had to jog back in my memory to the time between my First Communion and when I entered seminary almost 9 years ago.


Looking back over the past 29 years of my life since my childhood First Communion, I'm amazed at how many times I went in the wrong direction (and sometimes dangerous direction) and somehow God brought me back. I remember the times that I hung out with the wrong crowd in high school--mingling with kids who dabbled in New Age philosophy. I lost my faith as a result--I no longer believed in Jesus, Heavenly Father, or Blessed Mother. Yet, my mother still brought me to church for Mass, and I received Eucharist with that prideful attitude. Then I remember the moment I got to college; I spent Friday and Saturday nights going out clubbing and reserved Sundays for sleeping and recovering. It was a self-destructive lifestyle with no Eucharist on Sundays to nourish my soul.  As my soul shriveled up, I hit bottom. One day I walked around the college campus very confused and depressed, not knowing whether it was worth living another day. By chance, my girl friend at that time invited me to a non-denominational prayer meeting, and there I said a prayer to accept Jesus in my life. That was the beginning of my soul being nourished again. I was aware that I was loved. I understood the passage from our First Reading, "Can a mother forget her infant, be without tenderness for the child of her womb? Even should she forget, I will never forget you." (Is 49:14-15)

Following that church experience, I attended other churches of various denominations, all except Catholic. Each denomination had its version of 'communion' where a small piece of bread and a thimble of grape juice were given. Each church emphasized their communion as a symbol and remembrance of the Last Supper. My love for the Lord continued to grow but I was not attending the church my mother wanted me to attend --- the Catholic Church.  But it wasn't my earthly mother who brought me back to the Catholic Church, it was Blessed Mother. It was after watching the movie "The Miracle of Our Lady of Fatima" that I began to investigate Blessed Mother's apparitions that had occurred around the world. And alongside her apparitions, I noticed miracles involving Eucharist. One that caught my attention was a miracle that happened in 1266 in Santarem, Portugal, only an hour away from Fatima. A young wife was distraught by her husband's infidelities and sought a sorceress for a solution. The sorceress told the wife to bring back a consecrated host from Mass as an ingredient for a love-potion. The wife went to Mass, received the Eucharist, and placed it in a handkerchief and immediately the host began to bleed. Frightened, the wife took the bloody handkerchief home and hid it in her bedroom drawer. That night, mysterious bright light emitted from the drawer, and the wife told her husband what had happened. They summoned the priest to come, and he took it to church where the host continued to bleed for 3 more days. That host-turned-flesh has been preserved intact for more than 700 years, and I had a chance to see it on my pilgrimage to Fatima in 2004.

Upon seeing Eucharistic miracles, it began to make sense to me what Jesus was saying in John, Chapter 6. Jesus said, "I am the living bread that came down from heaven; whoever eats this bread will live forever; and the bread that I will give is my flesh for the life of the world...Amen, amen, I say to you, unless you eat the flesh of the Son of Man and drink his blood, you do not have life within you.Whoever eats my flesh and drinks my blood has eternal life, and I will raise him on the last day." (Jn 6:53-56)

I don't think we truly understand what Jesus is saying to us, that when we take the Eucharist, we should not be afraid of death for Jesus is giving us the eternal life. The natural tendency for us is to worry about the practical daily needs of the day; we can't think in terms of eternity. The day that we're going to die seems so far away. Many of us feel what Jesus says to us in the Gospel seems out of touch with reality. Jesus says, "Do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink, or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food and the body more than clothing?...All these things the pagans seek. Your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be given you besides."  Perhaps we may ask, "Does God understand that we have rent to pay and mouths to feed? How can we not worry?"

The day I truly understood what Eucharist is, was the day I realized why Jesus was giving Himself to me in a small, white host. From our First Reading we read, "Can a mother forget her infant, be without tenderness for the child of her womb? Even should she forget, I will never forget you." Jesus who has unconditional love greater than any earthly mother, forgave all my rebellion against Him and forgave all my not so proud sins against Him. He said to me, "Take this Paul and eat it. This is My Body which will be given up for you...Drink this Paul. This is the cup of My Blood...it will be shed for you so that your sins will be forgiven..." If God was to call me home to Heaven immediately after this Mass, would I complain about what I will eat, drink, or wear? If Jesus is the Kingdom of Heaven, then by taking that small, white host, I am totally immersed in Heavenly Love. In our brokenness, the only response to Jesus is, "Lord, I'm not worthy to receive You"...as we ponder, Don't you remember all those times I have blasphemed against You? All those times that I haven't been chaste? Do you still want to come to me?..."But only say the word, and I shall be healed."

Friday, February 25, 2011

Feb. 25, 2011 Friday: Hidden Greatness

Hidden Greatness




(St. Andre Bessette, a humble, great devotee of St. Joseph and the founder of St. Joseph Oratory in Montreal)

There is much emphasis on notoriety and fame in our society. Our newspapers and television keep giving us the message: What counts is to be known, praised, and admired, whether you are a writer, an actor, a musician, or a politician.

Still, real greatness is often hidden, humble, simple, and unobtrusive. It is not easy to trust ourselves and our actions without public affirmation. We must have strong self-confidence combined with deep humility. Some of the greatest works of art and the most important works of peace were created by people who had no need for the limelight. They knew that what they were doing was their call, and they did it with great patience, perseverance, and love.

-Henry Nouwen



(Oratory of St. Joseph, Montreal, Canada)

Thursday, February 24, 2011

Feb. 24, 2011 Thursday: Bring secrets into light

Bringing Our Secrets into the Light

We all have our secrets: thoughts, memories, feelings that
we keep to ourselves. Often we think, "If people knew what I
feel or think, they would not love me." These carefully kept
secrets can do us much harm. They can make us feel guilty or
ashamed and may lead us to self-rejection, depression, and
even suicidal thoughts and actions.

One of the most important things we can do with our secrets
is to share them in a safe place, with people we trust. When
we have a good way to bring our secrets into the light and
can look at them with others, we will quickly discover that
we are not alone with our secrets and that our trusting
friends will love us more deeply and more intimately than
before. Bringing our secrets into the light creates
community and inner healing. As a result of sharing secrets,
not only will others love us better but we will love
ourselves more fully.

-Henri Nouwen

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Feb. 23, 2011 Wednesday: Jesus wants to be with me

Wisdom breathes life into her children and admonishes those who seek her.
He who loves her loves life; those who seek her will be embraced by the Lord. 
-Sirach 4:11-12

I was talking to our pastor Fr. Frank about his routine of waking up at 3:30AM and going to adoration for an hour. He said, "Most of the mornings, I'm thinking, 'I got to wake up because I want to be with Jesus.' But one morning, a heavenly wisdom entered my mind. 'Jesus is waking me up because Jesus wants to be with me.' All throughout the day, I was aware how Jesus wanted to be with me."

The same can be said for all of us who gets inspired to come to daily mass. It's not so much that I want to go to Holy Mass and receive Jesus; instead, it's Jesus who is inspiring me to get up because He wants to meet me! He wants to come to my heart in communion!



Jesus instructed St. Faustina about this mystery of communion one night. In her diary, St. Faustina wrote the following:

... I saw the Infant Jesus near my kneeler. He appeared to be about one year old, and He asked me to take Him in my arms. When I did take Him in my arms, He cuddled up close to my bosom and said, "It is good for Me to be close to your heart. ... Because I want to teach you spiritual childhood. I want you to be very little, because when you are little, I carry you close to My Heart, just as you are holding Me close to your heart right now" (Diary, 1481).

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Feb. 22, 2011 Tuesday: Closeness and Distance

The Balance Between Closeness and Distance

Intimacy between people requires closeness as well as
distance. It is like dancing. Sometimes we are very close,
touching each other or holding each other; sometimes we move
away from each other and let the space between us become an
area where we can freely move.

To keep the right balance between closeness and distance
requires hard work, especially since the needs of the
partners may be quite different at a given moment. One might
desire closeness while the other wants distance. One might
want to be held while the other looks for independence. A
perfect balance seldom occurs, but the honest and open
search for that balance can give birth to a beautiful dance,
worthy to behold.

-Henri Nouwen

Monday, February 21, 2011

Feb. 21, 2011 Monday: True Intimacy


True Intimacy



Human relationships easily become possessive. Our hearts so
much desire to be loved that we are inclined to cling to the
person who offers us love, affection, friendship, care, or
support. Once we have seen or felt a hint of love, we want
more of it. That explains why lovers so often bicker with
each other. Lovers' quarrels are quarrels between people who
want more of each other than they are able or willing to
give.

It is very hard for love not to become possessive because
our hearts look for perfect love and no human being is
capable of that. Only God can offer perfect love. Therefore,
the art of loving includes the art of giving one another
space. When we invade one another's space and do not allow
the other to be his or her own free person, we cause great
suffering in our relationships. But when we give another
space to move and share our gifts, true intimacy becomes
possible.

-Henry Nouwen

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Feb. 20, 2011: 7th Sunday Ordinary (A)




Children have fascinating ways of putting into words the world they see. The other day, a parishioner was telling me about what her four-year-old granddaughter asked her. The grand mother told her grand daughter that she needed prayers because she was going to have eye surgery. The little one assured her grandmother that she was going to pray for her. Then the little one turned and asked, "Which eye do I need to pray for?"  

Sometimes their honesty disarms us. On one of Art Linkletter's show, "Kids Say the Darndest Things," Art asked a boy what his daddy did for a living. So the following conversation ensued:

Boy: "My dad's a lawyer."
Art: Does he put people in jail?
Boy: "No, he's on the innocent side."
Art: I suppose you want to be a lawyer too.
Boy: "No, a cop, so I can put my daddy in jail."
Art: Why would you do a thing like that?
Boy: "He spanked me last night."


Sometimes children can help open adults' eyes to heaven. A parishioner whose husband had terminal cancer told me how her husband changed over the last 11-months of his life as he interacted with his two-year-old granddaughter.  Her husband, who was normally shy and reclusive, was not the talkative type who liked to express his thoughts and feelings. His reclusive tendencies became more pronounced as he faced the prospect of death. Then a bright star entered into his life. As his granddaughter learned how to talk, she would wake up and go up to her pawpaw who was lying in his bed and announce loudly, "Good morning, pawpaw! Are you sick? Do you have a boo-boo? Can I kiss it well?" Her pure and innocent love opened up her pawpaw's heart and helped him see the world through the wonder of a child's eyes. In turn, he began to open his heart to his daughter and his wife. His daughter said, "I feel like my dad made up in the past 11-months what he failed to do in decades of trying to be a loving father."


We heard in our First Reading, "Be holy, for I, the LORD, your God, am holy." We heard something similar from Jesus in our Gospel, "So be perfect, just as your heavenly Father is perfect.” After hearing these words,  did we wonder to ourselves, 'How can I be holy. Only God is holy?' For man by himself, attaining holiness is impossible. But with God, everything is possible. St. Paul instructed us today, "Do you not know that you are the temple of God, and that the Spirit of God dwells in you?" The pawpaw with terminal cancer rediscovered, through a child whose pure love radiated from her little heart, the God who dwelled in his heart.  He rediscovered God who is kind and merciful, slow to anger and abounding in kindness. He experienced in a profound way God who did not deal with him according to his sins but was compassionate. The pawpaw rediscovered that he could also love as that little child did, for the Spirit of God dwelling in him overshadowed his shyness and reclusiveness. In a sense, the granddaughter taught him how to be holy by helping him encounter the God who desired him to be holy. Blessed Mother from Medjugorje pointed out to us how we can be holy through child-like humility. She said:



“Dear children! God wants to make you holy. Therefore, through me He is inviting you to complete surrender. Let holy mass be your life. Understand that the church is God's palace, the place in which I gather you and want to show you the way to God. Come and pray. Neither look at others nor slander them, but rather, let your life be a testimony on the way of holiness. Churches deserve respect and are set apart as holy because God, who became man, dwells in them day and night. Therefore, little children, believe and pray that the Father increase your faith, and then ask for whatever you need. I am with you and I am rejoicing because of you conversion and I am protecting you with my motherly mantle. Thank you for having responded to my call. ” (Our Lady of Medjugorje, April 25, 1988)

Thursday, February 17, 2011

Feb. 17, 2011 Thursday: Seven Founders of Order of Servites


Seven Founders of the Order of Servites

In the thirteenth century in the city of Florence, Italy, seven young men formed a group called the Praisers of Mary. They met in order to pray, and they were especially devoted to Mary.

 On the feast of the Assumption, while the seven friends were deep in prayer, the Blessed Mother appeared to them. She inspired them to leave everything behind and to live alone with God. After several years of living as hermits, they went to their bishop. They asked him for a rule of life to follow. The bishop encouraged them to pray and to ask for guidance from Mary. Mary again appeared to the men. This time she was carrying a black habit (a kind of robe). At her side was an angel holding a scroll with the words “Servants of Mary” written on it. In this vision, the Blessed Mother said that she had chosen them to be her servants. She asked them to wear a black habit. This was the habit they started to wear in 1240. They also began to live their religious life according to the rule of St. Augustine.

The seven founders’ names are Bonfilius, Bonajuncta, Amideus, Hugh, Manettus, Sostenes, and Alexius. All of them except Alexius became priests. Alexius felt himself unworthy to be ordained.

Others joined the group and the Servite Order grew. The purpose of the members was to become more and more like Jesus, to preach the Gospel, and to spread devotion to Mary, especially as Our Lady of Sorrows. The Servite Order was approved by the Vatican in 1259. The seven holy founders were declared saints by Pope Leo XIII in 1888.

(Source: Daughters of St. Paul)

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Feb. 15, 2011 Tuesday: Hardened Heart


The disciples had forgotten to bring bread, and they had only one loaf with them in the boat. Jesus enjoined them, “Watch out, guard against the leaven of the Pharisees and the leaven of Herod.” They concluded among themselves that it was because they had no bread.When he became aware of this he said to them, “Why do you conclude that it is because you have no bread? Do you not yet understand or comprehend? Are your hearts hardened? Do you have eyes and not see, ears and not hear?

Why does the Lord warn against 'leaven' of the Pharisees?
Just as leaven makes bread rise--increase--the leaven the Pharisees were 'using' that is preaching--was 'increasing' their followers to their way of thinking. However, their leaven was 'harmful' leaven. They were spreading false teachings and beliefs.

Why does the Lord refer to the Pharisees of having 'hardness of heart'?
The Pharisees were false teachers, full of pride, self-absorbed, ruler of the people, strict with the law, and thought they could do no wrong. They did not have compassion or understand justice, mercy, or faith. They did not understand that to love God included loving all of His children. Their hearts were hardened.

Some of our hearts are hardened as well. Many of us perform many works of mercy but we may still be blind to many who are poor. We must continue to deepen our love for Our Lord and increase our love for our neighbor.

Monday, February 14, 2011

Feb. 14, 2011 Monday: Ardent love for God



The following is  an excerpt from Jesus Appeals to the World: From the Writings of Sr. Consolata Betrone by Lorenzo Sales, IMC.

Jesus speaks to Sr. Consolata:

Tell me, Consolata, which is the more perfect soul: one who is always bewailing to Jesus that she is imperfect, is constantly committing faults, and is unfaithful to her resolutions--or one who is always smiling at Jesus, does what she can to love Him, but does not worry over her involuntary imperfections so as not to lose time; she is intent solely upon continuing to love Jesus. Tell Me which of these souls seems to you to be the more perfect?

Consolata replied, "I like the second one better."

Therefore, do what you can to love Me, and when you realize that you have been unfaithful to Me, offer Me a more ardent act of love, and then take up once again your song of love. Jesus is not a tyrant, and if He forgives an entire lifetime of crime in return for one act of love, then tell Me, how could it be that He would take notice one day of some useless thought on which you had dwelt involuntarily? It is a futile lament and a loss of time to keep repeating to Me: 'Look, Jesus, what I have done; how faithless I have been...' On the contrary, a more ardent act of love enriches your own soul and delights Mine!  Do you understand?...Do not give a thought to your involuntary imperfections!

Saturday, February 12, 2011

Feb. 13, 2011: 6th Sunday Ordinary (A)

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I don't know if you know this, but our pastor, Fr. Frank, has a very admirable daily routine. He gets up at 3:30 in the morning, goes straight to the Perpetual Adoration chapel and spends an hour in prayer. Then, he grabs his jacket and tennis shoes and goes out for a brisk walk for 45 minutes. Lately, it has been quite cold, and his face has been getting unbearably cold. Then he showed me the other day a providential discovery on one of the streets he walked along--a black ski mask. I asked him, "Do you think that one was used for a burglary and thrown away on the street?" Fr. Frank said, he didn't know but he said it was a providential find. So the other morning, he was walking in the 30-degree weather with his black ski mask on. He said his face felt so warm. Then he noticed a police car following behind him. Our man in black was being mistaken for another kind of man in black who breaks laws. Yet it was so cold that even the policeman didn't want to get out of his car to check this masked man walking in the neighborhood. The police car followed him for a block then disappeared.


We often think that those who break laws are easy to spot, like a man wearing a black ski mask. Is he a burglar looking to break into a house or is he a priest who wants to protect his face from the cold? It's hard to tell.  We don't wear our intentions outwardly. Our intentions are hidden in our hearts. Therefore, God has to speak to us, directly to our hearts, in order to instruct us whether we are going in His direction or whether we have chosen our own selfish direction. But how do we know what God desires for us, unless we pray and listen to God speaking to our hearts. If we do not pray, we could easily say to ourselves, "What I desire must be what God desires for me." I thought Blessed Mother's February message in Medjugorje was very instructive regarding this. She said:

“Dear children; you are seeking the truth but are forgetting what is the most important, you are forgetting to pray properly. Your lips pronounce countless words, but your spirit does not feel anything. Wandering in darkness, you even imagine God Himself according to yourselves, and not such as He really is in His love. Dear children, proper prayer comes from the depth of your heart, from your suffering, from your joy, from your seeking the forgiveness of sins. This is the way to come to know the right God and by that also yourselves, because you are created according to Him. Prayer will bring you to the fulfillment of my desire, of my mission here with you, to the unity in God's family. Thank you." (February 2, 2011)

A couple of days ago, I was in the emergency room at Our Lady of the Lake pronouncing the following words of the Last Rites over a man who was unconscious and whose breath was very shallow:

"I commend you, my dear brother, to almighty God, and entrust you to your Creator.
May you return to him who formed you from the dust of the earth.
May holy Mary, the angels, and all the saints come to meet you as you go forth from this life.
May Christ who was crucified for you bring you freedom and peace.
May Christ who died for you admit you into his garden of paradise.
May Christ, the true Shepherd, acknowledge you as one of his flock.
May he forgive all your sins, and set you among those he has chosen.
May you see your Redeemer face to face, and enjoy the vision of God for ever."

The great mystery is that just the day before, he was sitting upright in his bed listening to my "Tour of the End of Life" for him. I said to him, when you die and meet Jesus, He will show you the 'Movie' of your life. You'll realize that every moment of your life was a gift from God. At every moment, Jesus wanted you to be His Love in action--to be His kindness, gentleness, patience, compassion, and understanding. Yet, you had a choice--to choose God's Will or your own selfish will. As our First Reading said,  "If you choose you can keep the commandments, they will save you; if you trust in God, you too shall live; he has set before you fire and water to whichever you choose, stretch forth your hand. Before man are life and death, good and evil, whichever he chooses shall be given him. No one does God command to act unjustly, to none does he give license to sin."


I told this man the day he was sitting up and listening to me intently, "Jesus could have called you to Heaven a few years ago, last month, or even this morning. Yet, Jesus has given you another day for you to meet this priest and receive the anointing and confession." This man and I did not know that he would be given only one more day on earth. The very next morning, he was in a serious car accident that placed him in an emergency room with little chance of surviving.

It's a sober reminder for us that Jesus asks us to stay awake and be diligent. The Responsorial Psalm reads, "O God. You have commanded that your precepts be diligently kept. Oh, that I might be firm in the ways of keeping your statutes!" Each one of us was given the gift to choose God's way or our own way. No one can choose for us. Therefore, we cannot blame another person for decisions that we make. Others may not be able to see the intentions of our heart, but God sees. How many times in the Confessional do I hear a person say to me, "Father, I haven't killed anyone, stole anything, or cheated on my wife." Our Lord in the Gospel reminds us that He sees our intentions. He said, "You have heard that, You shall not kill; and whoever kills will be liable to judgment. But I say to you, whoever is angry with brother will be liable to judgment...and whoever says to brother, ‘You fool,’will be liable to fiery Gehenna...You have heard that it was said, You shall not commit adultery. But I say to you, everyone who looks at a woman with lust has already committed adultery with her in his heart."

It may be easy for a policeman to see a man in a ski mask on a dark street and not see a priest underneath it. Yet God sees the very depth of our hearts, to see whether our intention is to choose our selfish will or to choose His kindness, gentleness, patience, compassion, and understanding. And only in silent and intense prayer will we hear the Lord say to us, "Blessed are they who follow the law of the Lord!"

Friday, February 11, 2011

Feb. 11, 2011 Friday: Feast of Our Lady of Lourdes

St. Bernadette of Soubirous' first apparition of Our Lady
"Song of Bernadette" (1943)



Version of movie shown at the Shrine of Our Lady of Lourdes, France
First apparition of Our Lady


Candle light procession. Shrine of Our Lady of Lourdes, France

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Feb. 10, 2011 Thursday: St. Scholastica


St. Scholastica: Born in Nursia (Nurcia), Italy, c. 480 (?); died near Monte Cassino, Italy, c. 543.
Almost everything we know about Saint Scholastica comes from the Dialogues of Saint Gregory the Great.

Saint Scholastica, twin sister of Saint Benedict of Nursia who founded of the Benedictine order, was consecrated to God at a very early age but probably continued to live in her parents' home. It is said that she was as devoted to Jesus as she was to her brother. So, when Benedict established his monastery at Monte Cassino, Scholastica founded a convent in nearby Plombariola, about five miles south of Monte Cassino. The convent is said to have been under the direction of
her brother, thus she is regarded as the first Benedictine nun.

The siblings were quite close. The respective rules of their houses proscribed either entering the other's monastery. According to Saint Gregory, they met once a year at a house near Monte Cassino monastery to confer on spiritual matters, and were eventually buried together, probably in the same grave. Saint Gregory says, "so death did not separate the bodies of these two, whose minds had ever been united
in the Lord."

Saint Gregory tells the charming story of the last meeting of the two saints on
earth. Scholastica and Benedict had spent the day in the "mutual comfort of
heavenly talk" and with nightfall approaching, Benedict prepared to leave.
Scholastica, having a presentiment that it would be their last opportunity to see
each other alive, asked him to spend the evening in conversation. Benedict sternly
refused because he did not wish to break his own rule by spending a night away
from Monte Cassino. Thereupon, Scholastica cried openly, laid her head upon the
table, and prayed that God would intercede for her. As she did so, a sudden storm
arose. The violent rain and hail came in such a torrential downpour that Benedict
and his companions were unable to depart.

"May Almighty God forgive you, sister" said Benedict, "for what you have done."

"I asked a favor of you," Scholastica replied simply, "and you refused it. I asked it
of God, and He has granted it!"

Just after his return to Monte Cassino, Benedict saw a vision of Scholastica's soul
departing her body, ascending to heaven in the form of a dove. She died three
days after their last meeting. He placed her body in the tomb he had prepared for
himself, and arranged for his own to be placed there after his death. Her relics
were alleged by the monk Adrevald to have been translated (July 11) to a rich
silver shrine in Saint Peter's Church in Le Mans, France, which may have been
when Benedict's were moved to Fleury. In 1562, this shrine was preserved from
the Huguenots' plundering.

from http://saintbenedict.org/stscholastica.htm

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Feb. 9, 2011 Wednesday: Daily Homily


"the LORD God formed man out of the clay of the ground
and blew into his nostrils the breath of life,
and so man became a living being." (Genesis 2:4-9)

Monday, February 7, 2011

Feb. 8, 2011 Tuesday: Wonder of God's Creation

Click to hear audio homily

Taking my parents to movies is always a hit or miss. My mom does not understand English, and my dad cannot understand all the nuances of the English language; someone said that you really understand the language when you begin to laugh at jokes. I typically take them to movies that have lots of visuals but little plot and few dialogues. One movie that was a great hit with them was the "March of the Penguins". My parents didn't need to understand Morgan Freeman's narration. They saw it for themselves the beauty behind the penguin parents' love for their baby.



The female lays a single egg, and the co-operation of the parents is needed if the chick is to survive. After the female lays the egg, she transfers it to the feet of the waiting male with a minimal exposure to the elements, as the intense cold will kill the developing embryo. The male tends to the egg when the female returns to the sea, now even farther away, both in order to feed herself and to obtain extra food for feeding her chick when she returns. She has not eaten in two months and by the time she leaves the hatching area, she will have lost a third of her body weight.
For an additional two months, the males huddle together for warmth, and incubate their eggs. They endure temperatures approaching −62 °C (−80 °F), and their only source of water is snow that falls on the breeding ground. When the chicks hatch, the males have only a small meal to feed them, and if the female does not return, they must abandon their chick and return to the sea to feed themselves. By the time they return, they have lost half their weight and have not eaten for four months. The chicks are also at risk from predatory birds. (Wikipedia)

After the movie, my mom said, "Those penguins are better than some human parents." We listen to the Creation account of the Genesis with the same wonder:

God said,
“Let the water teem with an abundance of living creatures,
and on the earth let birds fly beneath the dome of the sky.”
And so it happened:
God created the great sea monsters
and all kinds of swimming creatures with which the water teems,
and all kinds of winged birds.
God saw how good it was, and God blessed them, saying,
“Be fertile, multiply, and fill the water of the seas;
and let the birds multiply on the earth.”

Yet the more wondrous creation is what happens next:

Then God said:
“Let us make man in our image, after our likeness.
Let them have dominion over the fish of the sea,
the birds of the air, and the cattle,
and over all the wild animals
and all the creatures that crawl on the ground.”
God created man in his image;
in the divine image he created him;
male and female he created them.

Sometimes we have to see the beauty of God's lesser creatures in order to recognize the greater beauty and amazement that God has placed in creating us. It is for this reason that we should praise our Heavenly Father as the Psalmist did:
"O Lord, our God, how wonderful your name in all the earth!"

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Feb. 6, 2011: 5th Sunday Ordinary (A)

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A Few days ago I went to Our Lady of the Lake Hospital to visit a parishioner from my previous parish. When I entered the room, the parishioner was about to eat lunch, so I first gave him the anointing and sat down with his family member to chat. Meanwhile, the patient was having difficulty opening up the tray of food he received. His left hand was previously amputated, and he only has his right hand to pry open the tightly wrapped fork and knife and tightly sealed juice cup. I was debating with myself whether to help him or not, for I did not want to take away his sense of independence and hurt his feelings. I ignored my internal debate and sprang up to help him get situated with his food. When he said, "Thank you," I sat down again, wondering to myself what else can I do for him.

On the TV above the bed was playing America's Funniest Video.  A 3-year old boy was taking a bath, and on a plastic stool nearby, was  his white cat watching him with curiosity. The little boy must have thought that his 'friend' was missing out on all the fun of bathing, so the little boy grabbed hold of the paws of his cat and pulled him into the bath tub. Once in the water, the cat frantically tried to swim out of the slippery bath tub. After multiple tries, the cat finally got himself out of the water, and the boy watched with surprise as to why his furry buddy didn't like a bath. The family member and I laughed and laughed. I sat there the next 20 minutes with the family caretaker watching and laughing at more clips of bloopers. I got up, said my goodbyes, and walked to the door. I wondered to myself, 'I wasn't much help to the patient; I just watched TV.' Then as I was walking toward the elevator, a thought occurred to me. 'He has been in and out of the hospital for the past 3-4 weeks with much pain and suffering. He probably hasn't heard much laughing lately. I hope our laughing helped to give him a sense of normalcy.'




Sometimes we wonder, what did we do for God today?  All too often our answer is, 'Nothing,' similar to what I felt when I left the hospital room. When we hear Jesus say to us in the Gospel, “You are the salt of the earth...You are the light of the world," we may say to ourselves, "I haven't been the salt of the earth or the light of the world today. What good was I?" We heard in the First Reading, "Share your bread with the hungry, shelter the oppressed and the homeless; clothe the naked when you see them, and do not turn your back on your own. Then your light shall break forth like the dawn, and your wound shall quickly be healed..." And we say to ourselves, 'I haven't fed a hungry person off the street, I haven't provided shelter to the homeless.'

Perhaps God is not asking us to look outside of our surroundings to be His Salt and His Light. When some people think of doing the work of God, they immediately think of places such as soup kitchen and homeless shelters. While these are wonderful works of charity, we must also look closer to home and places of work.  Mother Teresa said, ”We forget, sometimes, that we are called to give God’s love and compassion first to our families, those are the very life of our life. So often, in our heart, there is bitterness; on our tongue, there are ugly words; in our attitude, there is pride. To think that in that very heart Jesus comes; so on that very tongue we receive Jesus; and that attitude is so unworthy of us who are called to belong to Christ...Much of the hurt in our homes comes from uncontrolled use of words, said anywhere, in front of other people. Let us open our eyes to the harm we do."


She continues, "More and more, make your homes places of love and peace. Don’t let the devil cheat you by his evil ways, tempting you to be unkind and harsh to one another. Enjoy each other. Love one another as Jesus has loved you. “See how they love each other,” Jesus said. Let us be faithful to his teaching. Do not spoil the work of God by your unkindness...The simplest way to become his light is to be kind and loving, thoughtful and sincere with each other."

Feb. 5, 2011 Saturday: Can my Son be born in you?

Friday, February 4, 2011

Feb. 4, 2011 Friday: Message from Our Lady of Medjugorje (Feb 2, 2011)

Dear children; You are gathering around me, you are seeking your way, you are seeking, you are seeking the truth but are forgeting what is the most important, you are forgeting to pray properly. Your lips pronounce countless words, but your spirit does not feel anything. Wandering in darkness, you even imagine God Himself according to yourselves, and not such as He really is in His love. Dear children, proper prayer comes from the depth of your heart, from your suffering, from your joy, from your seeking the forgiveness of sins. This is the way to come to know the right God and by that also yourselves, because you are created according to Him. Prayer will bring you to the fulfillment of my desire, of my mission here with you, to the unity in God's family. Thank you. ” (Our Lady of Medjugorje, Feb. 2, 2011)

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Feb. 3, 2011 Thursday: Message from Jesus

The following message was given from Jesus to us, through Anne a Lay Apostle


February 1, 2011

Jesus

Dearest apostles, I am here, waiting to listen to your pleas. I hear your hearts as they groan in the loneliness of serving heaven when around you others do not serve heaven. You serve alongside those who either live according to the standards of the world or live serving out a call that is different from yours. Truly, I know that there are times when you wonder why I have placed you where I have placed you. I hope, dear apostles, that these times are brief. I hope that you will spend less time wondering why you are serving in a given role and more time wondering how to serve more completely in the role given to you. You see, comparisons to others will never bear fruit. You are unique. The work I have for you is unique and you must beware of the habit of dragging your vocation behind you as though it were something so heavy that it destroyed your joy. This is not how an apostle lives out a vocation. An apostle views his vocation as a prism through which opportunities for holiness and joy splash out in countless beautiful and varied ways. Truly, others should view you and your vocation as inseparable. You should become your vocation. Oh dear apostles, I know that you carry crosses associated with your holy vocations, but do you not see that these crosses, carried with dignity, illustrate My presence in your life and indeed in the world more than anything else? In every circumstance, I bless you and receive you into My heart where you find the direction and reassurance you require. In every moment there is grace available for you and for others through you. The more grace I flow through you, the more the world is blessed and the more you are sanctified. Move toward Me, closer and closer in your hearts and in your actions and, truly, the world will find the love it craves. Look at how God's children drink in kindness, as though they were parched for want of it. Yes, you are sacrificing in order to answer My call but the plan is working and the world is being renewed through the efforts of all men of good will. Rejoice then, despite your cross. We are advancing the one righteous cause, that is, the cause of love.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Feb. 1, 2011 Tuesday: Peace Mass Talk

The following was the talk given about Our Lady of Guadalupe after the Peace Mass at Our Lady of Mercy on Jan. 25, 2011

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A couple of years ago, pilgrims and I were in a bus traveling to a place where something extraordinary and miraculous happened many years ago. On the way there we looked out of our windows and we saw grim concrete blockade walls topped with barbed wire all along the highway.  It was as if we were entering a military compound. As we neared our destination, there was a check point where a soldier with an imposing rifle got near the bus to survey who was in it. We were allowed to proceed. On the streets, we saw poverty; cars without tires, doors, and a hood were left abandoned on the streets. Broken concrete dotted the road.  Some of the buildings were in serious disrepair. As we approached the building where the miracle happened, we saw the opening for the entrance. The height of the opening was not even tall enough for this short Korean to walk through. All of us had to stoop and bend in order to enter.





Several weeks ago, pilgrims and I were in a bus traveling to another place where something extraordinary and miraculous happened many years ago. We saw people jam packed into a dilapidated bus that was about to fall apart. We saw beggars on the grassy median of a busy road. When we were stopped at a signal light, we saw men and women selling gum, cigarettes, and snacks to the occupants in the cars that were also waiting for the light to change. We saw young men with a liter bottle of something underneath their arms, cleaning windshields for some change. When we arrived at the building where the miracle was displayed, we were greeted by several armed policemen wearing bulletproof vests and carrying pump shotguns.

Although I’m describing something external and physical, sometimes that’s what our inner world feels like when we come to the church on Sundays. We feel the turmoil inside, as if we are standing on dry, dusty ground looking for water, looking for peace. Things inside feel disjointed, abandoned, and impoverished. Externally, our family and friends cannot tell any difference. Things seem normal and okay. But things are not okay inside. Yet the moment you set foot inside church, you suddenly feel different. There may be feelings of peace, feelings that assures us that things will be okay. This is the encounter between the human condition and the miraculous intervention.



The first pilgrimage I described, was a pilgrimage to the place where a miraculous sign happened 2000 years ago. The second pilgrimage I described, was a pilgrimage to a the place where a miraculous sign happened 500 years ago. If you noticed, there were not external signs that there was something miraculous in those two places; rather, there were plenty of signs, like poverty and lack of peace, that there was something wrong. Yet God for some mysterious reason chose to put miraculous signs in the midst of chaos and abandonment. And the signs occurred to those who were utterly ordinary, so ordinary that many doubted that these signs could be given to such ordinary souls.



So in a small town of Bethlehem, a child was born for us to a teenager. Poor shepherds witnessed such wonder. Immediately this fragile life was already in jeopardy by the ruling king and had to be hidden away. Over 1500 years later, on a small hill of Tepeyac a 57-year old Indian received a heavenly image on a fragile, cactus fiber Tilma that under normal circumstance would have only survived 35 years. Over the years, several attempts to destroy this image were made, including a powerful time-bomb that shattered everything in sight except the intended target.

(Church of Bethlehem- Exterior)

(Church of Bethlehem- Interior)

(Church of Bethlehem- Jesus' Birth Cave)

(Church of Bethlehem- Jesus' Birth Place)


(Basilica of Our Lady of Guadalupe- Interior)

Few weeks ago as pilgrims and I stood on the conveyor belts that have moved millions of people below the 500-year old image of Our Lady of Guadalupe, we stood with rapt awe, just as the 8 million Mexican natives who upon seeing the image felt a motherly gaze that moved their hearts to belong to her in some way. For the natives of 1531, that desire to be loved and belong to this beautiful and loving lady moved them to conversion to Catholicism. This mother who gazed at them from the Tilma spoke internally to them, “Do whatever my Son asks you.”



Our beloved Pope John Paul II always said, “Be not afraid,”--not to let fear hinder in knowing, loving, and serving Our Heavenly Father. It is said that Pope Benedict XVI added to John Paul II’s exhortation by saying, “Be not afraid of Christ.” Prior to Our Lady of Guadalupe’s apparition, the native Mexicans were afraid of Spanish Conquistadors who brought plagues and enslavement; for the natives, the Spanish God was no better than the serpent gods that seemed to thirst for human blood. It took a humble, woman clothed with the sun, and moon under her feet, to crush the fear instilled both by the serpent gods and the Spanish Conquistadors.  Her “perfect love casts out fear.” (1 John 4:18)

I stood at one end of the conveyor belts and watched people gazing up to see the heavenly image on the Tilma. Some had their hands over their eyes because they were crying. In some mysterious, non-verbal way, they heard the gentle mother’s call--”My dear little son, my dear little daughter, I am the eternal Virgin Mary, Mother of the true God, Author of Life, Creator of all and Lord of the Heavens and of the Earth...as your most merciful Mother and that of all your people, I may show my loving clemency and the compassion that I bear to those who love and seek me...” The tears shed by these people were signs of the joy of finding anew their Heavenly Mother who has been with them from the very beginning of their conception. It was as if those who gazed at her image on the Tilma, in some mysterious way, felt Blessed Mother wrapping her arms around them and they were embraced by the warmth of the words Juan Diego heard her say, “My little son. Do not be distressed and afraid. Am I not here who am your Mother?  Are you not under my shadow and protection?  Am I not the fountain of your joy? Are you not in the fold of my mantle, in the cradle of my arms?”

(Basilica of Our Lady of Guadalupe- Exterior)

(Basilica of Our Lady of Guadalupe- Interior)

(The Original Image from 1531 of Our Lady of Guadalupe)

(Conveyor belts that move people below Our Lady's image)

After viewing the heavenly image, pilgrims made their way to the pews for the mass that was about to begin.  In the front of the sanctuary was the Nativity Set. Our group had arrived in Mexico City during the week that the Feast of Epiphany (Jan 6) was celebrated. In Mexico, gifts are given on Epiphany, when the wise men arrive, and not on Christmas. There is much anticipation and celebration leading up to the feast day so many were in the church that day. There were people gathered around the Nativity to view the scene and at the center of the scene was the Christ child. And there it was evident why Blessed Mother came to her children of Mexico. Her entire purpose was to bring her Beloved Son to the people to adore and to worship; she was making present again the miracle that happened in Bethlehem 1,500 years earlier. Yet the natives could not come and worship her Son unless a church was built; so Blessed Mother asked for a small church to be built where she appeared on the Tepeyac hill. She said to Juan Diego, “I want very much that they build my sacred little house here, in which I will show Him, I will exalt Him upon making Him manifest, I will give Him to all people in all my personal love, Him that is my compassionate gaze, Him that is my help, Him that is my salvation.” The small humble church built 500 years ago is now  a basilica capable of having 10,000 persons worshipping inside. In that basilica, Blessed Mother’s statue in the Nativity set gazed at the Christ Child as if to say, “Behold my Child, behold my Child.” That afternoon, I went down to a gift shop and purchased a life-sized statue of Christ Child. Immediately I returned to the conveyor belt below the Tilma, and I looked up and asked, “Blessed Mother, please bless your Son’s statue.” And I felt her speak to me as she said, “Behold my Child. Behold my Child.”



A day after arriving back in Baton Rouge from Mexico City, I found myself in my easy chair, holding the statue of Christ Child in my arms as I prayed the morning prayer. I heard Blessed Mother’s voice, “Behold my Child. Behold my Child...Cling to my Son. Be faithful to your prayers. Even in your most difficult moments be faithful to your prayers. Your prayers and Eucharist will sustain you.” That morning, my room was around 58 degrees. I forgot to turn on the heater. As I felt the coldness of the plaster statue of Infant Jesus, it occurred to me to ask Blessed Mother, “Blessed Mother, what will keep your Child Jesus warm?” I felt her saying to me, “My Son needs your prayers and sacrifice to keep him warm. My Son hungers for your love.” So just as Blessed Mother wrapped Infant Jesus in swaddling clothes to keep him warm and whispered words of comfort for her crying child, I found myself clutching this Child Jesus in my bosom, trying to keep Him warm by my love for Him.



That morning I celebrated Mass in my room, and at the moment when I lifted the Host and said, “Behold the Lamb of God, who takes away the sins of the world,” I imagined holding up the Christ Child who had rested in my arms, who hungered for me, who needed me, who loved me. This was the greatest grace that I received on my pilgrimage to Our Lady of Guadalupe.  Do you ever wonder why Jesus comes to us so intimately in the Eucharist? It is so that each one of us will bring the Christ Child to those around us. How many around us crave the love that only the Christ Child can give.



Juan Diego was chosen to bring Blessed Mother’s message. He was afraid and doubted, yet with Blessed Mother’s tender entreaty, he answered her call. We have been chosen to bring the Christ Child to others. We may be afraid. We may have doubts. Like Juan Diego, we must turn to Blessed Mother in prayer knowing that she will lead and guide. We must turn to her in our struggles, hurts, illnesses, turmoil, knowing that she is with us. She will bring us to her Son.